Saturday, July 19, 2008

A Budding Romance

Geranium Babies

First of all, I want to thank my loving blog friends for their prayers. I do feel much better and not so overwhelmed. It's so good to know I have friends that will pray for me and care. I have tried to focus more on the positive and give the rest to the Lord. I cannot change other people. It's hard enough to change myself.

I have been doing my study on Having a Mary Spirit by Joanna Weaver and it has really helped me. This next week I will be writing about how we have this battle raging within us and going over it this week has helped me to put some things in perspective. I have always had a tendency to want to help people even when they really didn't want me to.

When I was in kindergarten I had a little boyfriend named Donnie. He was so cute with olive skin and big green eyes. We were five but liked each other and held hands when we walked to the lunch room and outside for recess. At the end of every day we had to fold our mats a certain way. We used these mats to rest on for our nap. One afternoon Donnie was having a very difficult time getting his mat to fold up right and he had tried numerous times. I tried to get him to let me help him. He refused. We were the last two children left in the room with the teacher. He started crying and I started crying. I wanted him to let me help him. He was determined that he could do it himself. The teacher let us try and work it out and the tears kept coming. Finally our mothers showed up to pick us from school.

They hugged us and of course, the tears really got going. That was a very stressful situation for two five year olds. As I look back I was beginning a long history of trying to help someone that I am more worked up about helping. than they wanted to be helped. It is not a wonderful thing. It is draining, heart wrenching, and has taken me many years to figure out. Of course, figuring it out doesn't always been I don't fall back into old habits.

When I was in social work I experienced so much frustration. I am much better in the field that I'm currently in. I'm still helping people but I am more removed from the person I'm helping. That's a good thing for me. Again, I thank you for all your prayers and know that I do appreciate it so much.

I wanted to share Avery's new blooms. She loves gardening and has been watering and caring for, and I must add, talking to her flowers for months. She now has new geraniums on the horizon. It thrills her and I am so proud of her new skills.


Brenda@CoffeeTeaBooks said...

I enjoy YOUR blog, too.

I thought I'd pop over and tell you that I'd written earlier about losing Christopher's part of the Social Security Disability check since he has now graduated from high school.

Of course, being a homeschool mom I guess I could have FAILED him! :)

Indian Lake Papa said...

I love flowers - so does mama. in the fall mama somehow digs out her Geraniums and shakes off the dirt and puts them in paper bags in the basement, keeps them dark and then replants them in the spring! Most survive that ordeal and bloom again!

Ruthie said...

It's great that you have such a loving and giving heart. Glad you are feeling better and not so overwhelmed.
Loved the flower picture.

Dustye said...

Hi Trish it's good to back and blogging again. I have held you in prayer and am glad that your doing better. If I believed in reincarnation I would say we were sister in another life. We are so alike and always leading with our heart...and we do get hurt don't we? I hope that your next week is better and more blessed.


Knitting Mania said...

Afternoon Trish...I've really enjoyed catching up on your blog today...thanks for always visiting me and leaving such kind and thoughtful comments.

Be blessed today...

Maggie May said...

Hope you are feeling better now. I too get my moments.........
That story of your little friend was really a pognant memory. It is hard when you want to help some one but they won't accept it. we can but try. I also get upset bu things like that.

Rosezilla said...

I'm so glad you're feeling better about things. It is hard not to want to do things for others out of love and concern - but don't forget how much your prayers do!

steviewren said...

I can see that you feel a great deal of compassion for other people and ache to help. Maybe sometimes, God just wants us to pray so that He can show Himself strong to the hurting person. I don't know...hope you are feeling better.

Avery's geranium is fantastic. I love them but can't grow them at all.

Lavinia Ladyslipper said...

My goodness, Nanatrish, we are at opposite ends of the spectrum. I tend to be the one looking around and saying 'Help me!"

My kindergarten report card makes me chuckle, as my teacher wrote: "Lavinia needs to learn to do up her own boots and coat and not rely on her sister to do it for her".

You are like my mother. It is very, very, hard for her to stand by and let the other person 'do for' themselves....she rushes in to 'do for them'.

p.s.---Avery's geraniums are coming along very nicely...her efforts are paying off!