Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Update on Paul

I want to take this opportunity to thank my friends out there in blog land that have prayed for Paul and our family. I wish I were able to tell you that it is better, but unfortunately he is still lingering in a vegetative state. It has broken my heart and I had a mini meltdown today and said my goodbyes. I have been staying there at night and day and I am exhausted. He is not in pain and the agony of watching his every breathe has taken a toll.

His wife and I had some differences today and I told her I resented her leaving Jolie and Avery out of preparations. Long story short, I am not going to continue helping with him and knowing she is thinking of me as hired help. I did it because I felt I should and I have no regrets. Jolie and I will attend the funeral if we are informed in time.

I am who I am in part because I was married to him for 22 years. I didn't realize this would hit me so hard and I feel there could be much closure for Jolie if things would be handled right. I don't expect it at this time, but the Lord is in control and I am turning this over to Him.

My boss has been extremely kind and told me to take off the rest of the week. I am staying in Atlanta tonight and will head back to be with Jolie, Avery and Mark the rest of the week. I am blessed to have a husband that understands what I felt I must do. He (Mark) realizes that Paul was a huge part of my life and has been totally supportive.

In the midst of all this pain I am trying to find some pearls. Jolie has said she is really wanting to go back to attend church and get closer to the Lord. It has helped me resolve many issues. I have a definite peace that Paul is with the Lord. I just pray we will get to attend the funeral and Jolie will get to hear people say sweet things about her daddy. He attended church by himself and helped with teaching the men's Sunday School class.

We have had training and we will be gracious. Please help me pray it won't last much longer and that my daughter will realize when all is said and done that her daddy loved her and she can treasure some precious memories.

18 comments:

threegirlygirlz said...

Oh my friend......I'm sorry I haven't been on your blog lately to see what has been going on. I am so sorry for what you are going through...I cannot imagine. My prayers are with you tonight. Keep holding tight. I love you and my God just wrap His great big arms around you tonight.

Sparky ♥ ∞ said...

Oh my dear dear friend, how my heart reaches out to y'all this evening. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make the pain go away but only time will do that. I'm sorry about the loss you all are about to have to experience. Sadly, this is a world of goodbyes. Please know that we are all praying for everyone.
Be safe and know that He loves you beyond all measure and cares about how you feel. Keep us posted when you can. God bless. ((Hugs)) ♥ ∞

steviewren said...

Trish, I can understand how you feel about this. I was married for 26 years to my children's father. They all have a relationship with him, but because of his personality each one of them have issues or at least reservations. I wish better for them....but it could be worse too. I'm sad that things didn't turn out differently.

I will pray for Jolie and you and Paul too. Thanks for letting us know what is going on with the situation. Take care. God bless each one of you.

Technonana said...

Still here Trish!! My heart aches for you and Jolie, but praise the Lord that Mark is so understanding.
I know it will be hard but you need to try and rest. Let The Father love on you.
In Him,
Sharon

Lavinia said...

Oh dear, Nanatrish. You and your family are going through a very trying time right now. Its too bad that Paul's current wife is not being more co-operative and respectful of her husband's daughter (Jolie) and other family members. I will continue to pray for Paul and also for you to have the strength to endure what you may have to in the next little while. I'll be thinking of you!

Pat @ Mille Fiori Favoriti said...

{{{TRISH}}}}}Sending good and gentle thoughts and prayers your way for you, Jolie and for Paul. I'm glad you have some time to make your peace with him. I'm sure it's stressful for everyone. May God give you courage and strength to get though this with grace.

Maggie May said...

It is impossible to have shared so many years together and not be affected by the state your ex is in now. Lets just pray that you will all be given the strength to cope with what is to come. There are no easy ways but please be comforted to know that you are all in other people's thoughts and prayers even though you are in cyberspace, so to speak.
Thankfully, you have a wonderful relationship with your daughter & granddaughter and you will have a good stabilizing effect on their lives. Paul's wife will have to cope as best she can.
You have a very understanding and supporting husband.
God Bless.

freetobeme - Anita said...

My heart goes out to you, you're in my prayers. God knows...

Debby said...

This is an emotional time for everyone involved. My prayers to all of you.

Indian Lake Papa said...

Mama and Papa will be praying for you and your family and that the closures will come with God's grace.

Linda said...

{Trish!} Sending my prayers..I am so glad to read about your daughter wanting to attend church again..the Lord does indeed answer prayers. Blessings

Brenna said...

Trish, big hugs and kisses from you. I love you... Brenna xoxo

Betsy said...

Just popped in for an update. Thanks for posting this. I've been thinking about you a lot today! You must be exhausted! Big hugs ~ Betsy

Strider said...

It sounds like you have a great attitude in this difficult situation. All you can do is what is right as far as your part is concerned. And, as you said, we leave the details and the rest in God's capable hands. Blessings my friend.

Sandy said...

OH dear, I'm so sorry. I just went and read the previous entry and...lots of prayers for you...and Paul and the family...

Maree said...

You are a dear heart and the world is a better place with you in it Trish!

It's always darkest before the dawn.

You are in my prayers my friend.

a woman who is said...

I noticed you choose a new header that helps people feel peaceful and calm. I am praying for those very things for you as you walk through this season...I am so sorry for your pain, and Jolie's.

Dearest friend just know we have your back...in prayer.

Janeen said...

I'm sorry I missed these posts earlier this week. You weren't alone though and I KNOW you know that. Blessings to your family.